recovery

 

part one

 

numbing yourself

maximizes the pain

once you finally feel it.

 

dirt.

 

like everything

you’ve mistaken for

good

 

like everything you’ve

done wrong.

 

it stings like an open

wound that couldn’t

be stitched shut.

 

your skin will always be

cracked open with

brokenness. your flesh

will never be

 

clean.

 

part two

 

forgiving

takes more

Than one

therapy

Session

Forgiveness.

Like beauty

Like a birds’

freedom

You will never be

finished  apologizing

for yourself.

For what you’ve

made a mess of.

 

Part three

 

Addiction.

red eyed urge

Towards relief

And release.

The obsession

the thing you can’t

Go a day without.

Repetition.

The bad song stuck your head.

It doesn’t getting better

The second or third or

Fourth time around.

 

Part four

 

Relapse.

Like failure

Knowing you

Could’ve tried

Harder could’ve

Gone longer

Like crying

On the bathroom

Floor curled up

In a ball of your seven

Year old self again.

 

part five

 

And dust yourself off

Again.

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